Sunshine, Sonshine

"Trying to understand God is like trying to catch the 

sunshine in your hands."

God is big, and far beyond our understanding. And as easy as that concept sounds to understand and remember, it's not. We can see and feel the presence and work of something ineffable, but our we can never quite seem to grasp it. And so often instead of soaking up the sunshine and letting it fill my viens with warmth and satisfaction, I try to catch it, and put in in a little box that is understandable and easy to define. 

I've spent 12 years in school trying to 'figure things out', where our homework is to comprehend, understand and then be able to retell exactly what has been told to us. I live in a world where we are constantly trying to find answers and explantations for everything.  I live in a world where we don't just sit in adoration and awe or things that are bigger than us, but in a world where we dissect things until they are laid out plain in clear in front of us to fully understand.  It's really hard to comprehend, and I mean really comprehend that idea that God is Bigger than this world, and as far as my mind can stretch, God stretches farther. I've come to realize recently that my sunshine has been tucked in a nice and neat box for a very long time. I've been defining God and who He is according to my limited imagination and to only as big as I can understand.  It's time I let Him out and let Him shine in my life for everything He is whether or not I understand it. 

Ephesians 3:17-19 says: "Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is.  May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God."

God loves me more than I will ever know. God's love is so big that it actually takes power to grasp it, and Paul tell us that if we, although the love of God is too great to understand, allow for Him make home in our hearts we will be made complete with the fullness of life and power.

I refuse to make God's love for me seem smaller than it is. I'm going to continue to let the Son shine on me and just let that be enough, because wether or not I fully understand who God is, through him I can see everything, and receive true happiness and fullness of my life. And as I continue to attempt to learn more about God and everything He is and will be, I will make sure to always find beauty in the big mystery of Him and continue to live a life of awe and adoration of Him.

Lord, 

I pray that I may know more about you, but give me the peace to accept the things that go over my head, and the discernment to identity the things that you are doing in my life. Jesus, I pray that I may be yours fully everywhere I go. Lord, move in me and speak through me. God, I pray that I may actively pursue you as you pursue me. Steer me, Father, into a ife filled with your shining glory.

May your always be my anchor.

May your Kingdom always be my home.

You are all  I need, my everything is yours.

Amen.